Missing by: Flyleaf

I saw the queen
Swam out below her star on sea beneath
Though I lifted up my hands to her
She never lifted me

Oh something's missing in me
I felt it deep within me
As lovers left me to bleed alone

Found something sweet
On the island with daughters of eve
But through thick and thin they've gone away 
and only left their grief

Oh, something's missing in me
I felt it deep within me
As love has left me to bleed alone

Oh, something's missing in me
I felt it deep within me
As love has left me to bleed alone

Something's missing in me
Something's missing in me

Down here love wasn't' meant to be
It wasn't meant to be for me
(all is vanity, underneath the sun, all is vanity)

Oh, something's missing in me
I felt it deep within me
As love has left me to bleed alone

Something's missing in me
I felt it deep within me
As lovers left me to bleed alone

Something's missing in me
Something's missing in me
Something's missing in me
Something's missing in me

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Sucking that head.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8L0FKwpXmP4

All that's left

Well, I won't go into great detail but I am no longer working at my job. However I have been applying to places beforehand because I had a feeling it was not going to work out. I have gotten an interview on Thursday at one of the places I applied too. I know that placing my faith where it needs to be and staying focus has really worked off.

Now, I really am hopeful. I also gotten some excellent reads to read through. No doubt I cannot wait to read "A Good Indian Wife." from the description it sounds like it would be a great read. I'll let you know.

Here you can be anything....

I just want to find that escape. Go somewhere I can clear my head, and not be bothered by anyone or any thing. Last night I applied for a Call Center job, and honestly I do not see how I cannot get it. I guess it's really all up to God. But, I really need a full time job somewhere with benefits. Wouldn't that be nice? So I'm hoping that will work for me.

The last few days has caused me to  reevaluate my life and calls for me to make some dramatic changes. Changes will be made, people will be re-arranged in my life. It's time for me to take charge and start making my life the way I want to be.

roadrunner roadrunner goin 100 miles an hour

Grammys are tonight! I’ll be at work through, I’ve asked people to texted me the results. Other than that I have been really sick over the past few days. Like Friday and Saturday all I did was just sleep. It was good to crash after a while of not being able to sleep.  My birthday will be in a few months. Is it weird to say that? I feel that way, I feel like it is yet another year I’ve let slip by and things feel like the same. I really want things to change this year. I will try my hardest to make that happen.

I just want to get out of here.

So, last night at work I had the chance of meeting this highly intelligent individual. He comes through and asks if he asked if he can get a carton of cigarettes which I applied "yes." Well, then gives me 5 coupons and asks "Could I use these?" and I take the coupon he handed me and turned it over. "Well, yes but it says you can only get one per carton." Then he proceeds to argue with me "Well, when I usually come through I get 10 smokeless tobacco with these." I go "Yes, sir I understand but it clearly states on the coupon you can only use it one per carton. If you are willing to purchase 4 more cartons then you can use the coupons." Then he gets mad and says "Well are you working tomorrow?" and I go "Yes, and if you come through again I’ll tell you the same thing."

 NYC you seem so far away!

all i wanted

was to get some sleep, but that as usual did not happen. have to go to work and hour earlier. i need to go to wal-mart so i can get a bill paid or else all $$$ would have been wasted. ordered from applebee's, wishing they would hurry up with my order. it's my sister's bday today! weeeee! i went to union city which is like a suburb of atlanta, cos my sister got a maltese for her birthday.

My hearts been deceitful

No Doubt owns pretty much everything. I'm done now.

she don't shimmer like the others do

Another night, another sleepless night. For some strange reason I have been writing a lot recently. I have no idea why, but sometimes I will sit down and write random items for no apparent reason. Just to make myself feel better, I made up a list of things I wanted to purchase off of Amazon. I calculate the total with shipping and taxes would be like $150. Sometimes, I just smile at the things I will never be able to get because it will motivate me more to work towards it.

Also I would like to add I have an amazing life. Truly, I do. That's all.

The plot sucks but the killings are gorgeous.

3:20 AM and I am wide awake. This is nothing new. I have always been a night owl. In college I have two courses coming up: Math and Criticial Thinking. I want to change my major but I have no idea what to change it to.  My work has we working from 8pm-close today and tomorrow.  Basically, my shifts will be over as soon as I get there. I need to find a second job to make up for the hours they promised but never delivered. *le sigh*

I really like "Local Natives". So far my favourite songs are: "Shape Shifter." and "Wide Eyes." Also, for some reason I have been craving Olive Garden. I have not eaten there in such a long time. Luckily, my date agreed to take me there. I am suppose to be going to NYC in April. I cannot wait to go.

You can go with this or you can go with that.

I shouldn't really call someone an idiot but, I think it is within the context of the word. The benefits team of my current employment. YOU ARE FREAKING IDIOTS! I seriously, spent every day for the past 3 weeks! Trying to communicate with you regarding my benefits and guess what? NO ONE BOTHERED TO CONTACT ME BACK UNTIL TODAY! And guess who had to call them back? ME! I was informed that "I exceeded the contact date." I responded back saying: "Oh really? When it was me calling every single day since I got the notification and no one bothered to call me back?  No one bothered to contact me until now? By default you should grant me my enrollment."

Oh course I was giving a pile of shark poo regarding "company rules and policies." I am familiar with "company rules and policies." However I am not familiar with the massive miscommunication on your part. I am not happy that no one bothered to even give me a call back until today to be informed I couldn't get my benefits. 

It's called customer relations, effective communication, and overall making sure the customer needs are met. On all levels you have ultimately failed.

The eyes they follow your every move.

Okay, not going to lie but I totally feel like Doug Funny now and writing to my journal. Except I don't have a dog named pork chop nor a green friend named Skeeter. My name is Mary and I'm 23 going on 123. I hate early mornings and I wish fall could over eclipse the other seasons of the year. I hate the color yellow but at the same time I look good as a blonde. I am funny, witty, and at my worst I can be a bitch. Well, at least I own up to it.

I am currently going to watch some movies I hired. Yes, Jono would be proud I am trying to incorporate Oz slang into my everyday conversations. I am supposed to talk to Elizabeth tonight super excited!